Pretty Pretty!

[Private message to Ben: You did not break my blog, and you will find a lady-friend, I promise. You just need to stop looking! And also make a list of every single quality you want in a person, then stop looking.]

Okay, so I’m officially a single mom! Yay me!

We hear about the plight of the single mom and how hard it is on her, and granted there are things that I’m sure will be very hard, but I’m telling you that two nights of time to myself, to just be alone and to not have to clean up after another adult is just making me so blissed out. To have my own space again and decide, you know what? I want to paint that wall bright yellow because I can. I CAN. Feels so incredibly free!

I’m also in a lot better place than most single moms. My parents will be living in Oregon within the year. My best friend from high school just moved here. I’ve got a ton of dear friends here in Portland and a ton of projects and cool stuff I do, so you know, it’s totally exciting.

And, oddly, though I’m spending a lot of time with Archie, I’ve gotten my energy back about it. We were at the playground and for two days in a row, I actually played with him. I ran around and climbed and chased him and didn’t just sit there with my sunglasses on and knit. I was so excited to see him this morning, it took everything in me not to wake him up earlier.

And I just interruped my precious blogging time, to build A a little fort out of the mattress box.

I’m sure there will be days when I’m totally burned out, but today, the first day of my official single-momdom, I’m all good.

Maybe it’s because I slept so well on my 600-thread count Egyptian cotton sheets.

I got a new bed. Remember my old bed?

Because, right? That seems like a bed a guy would want? Well, that turned out to not be “mine” so I had to get another bed. And that’s actually for the best, because I went to Ikea with this thought: I will find the girliest fucking bed in this store and I will buy it and build it and sleep in it.”

And so I did. Presenting my new bed!

You guys! It’s white enamel. WHITE ENAMEL! Swear to god, I’m never giving up this bed. NEVER. I also bought a memory foam mattress from costco and also those 600-thread count sheets. In cream. I’m going to get new pillows too because now my pillows seem like crap.

I assembled it all myself. Moved the mattress, put the sheets on and then went to bed after a hot shower. I slept, under my heavy covers, with the windows open and it was delightful.

In a few weeks, we’ll have a painting party where we will primer with the mold-killing primer and by August, my house is going to be so beautiful and GIRLIE. Did I mention that my best friend from high school is an interior designer?

Here’s today’s hippy-dippy moral (stop reading here because the irony train has ground to a halt): when you make the right, hard, but right decision, the universe opens every door wide open. Opportunities flow and life becomes so much easier.